don't mess with my secret stash

A close friend invited me to a talk he was organizing today - Urban Protection Tactics - on self-protection. It was a pleasant surprise to see how they address self-protecion. One would certainly expect your regular martial arts training... how to kick that, how to break stuff, be a lean mean killing machine. However, it was instead an hour of good basic fundamentals on how to 'think' for our own safety....think it through.. be proactive.....etc etc. very helpful. I strongly recommend it. and yes! they don't pay me for putting it on my blog. here's their website http://www.blitzkriegconsultants.com/index.htm

One of the things mentioned in the talk was that our behaviour is a result of our mental decision. and our mental decision a result of how we feel. Some ppl says it this way. You have to start BEING before you can start thinking like it, before you can start acting like it. Be a winner. Think like you're a winner. Then do the things required of a winner to win. In other words, if you think you've lost or feel that it is so... you're lost.

emotion -> mental -> physical.
being -> thinking --> doing.

Reminds me of all the things I try to change in my life. I tend to get stuck in the doing part. I wake up early. I must control my diet. I must be more competitive. I must do my quiet time. I...etc etc etc.

I have been trying to change my resulting phyiscal action without changing my inner core values.

It is no surprise that most of us failed in fufilling our new year resolution or any other change we want for ourselves. I know, coz i haven't been able to do my quiet time regularly, eat regularly with less rice, do more running, listen more, be more competitive, be more gentle.....

However, I wanna give God the praise and glory for all the changes that He brought to my life. Each time He messes with my innercore, I feel like shit. man! SHIT is an understatement. I feel almost painful.... who likes to be messed with anyway? but I'm glad He did and he continues to do so that the work He begin will be complete on the day of the Lord Jesus.

.. and in a literal sense, when my innercore is changed.... my life is changed. and so is my music. I just got a new groove in my heart.